Your Trauma Made You Stronger – Right?

Your trauma made you stronger.”

No. My trauma left me traumatized.

My trauma left me bludgeoned and bleeding.

It left me totally destroyed from endless triggers and constant broken sleep.

It left empty, and scared, and unable to trust …

My partner.

The world.

Afraid to trust myself.

It left me floundering and dealing with emotions so intense.   

I lost touch with who I was. I’m a shell of my old self.

Yes, perhaps I’m still here … but I’m different inside.

Now I’m fragile and weak.

I am broken – not strong.

“After what she’s been through, there really should be ‘Crime Scene’ tape around her heart.” – John Mark Green

25 thoughts on “Your Trauma Made You Stronger – Right?

  1. Whoever says, “Your trauma made your stronger.” hasn’t experienced a significant amount of it.
    Yes, we can heal. But the scars remain.
    Today, perhaps I am more resilient than before, yet I’d prefer to have never been rejected and betrayed.

    If it happened to you, remember this: you were a victim. Don’t listen to anyone who says otherwise.

    God Bless!

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  2. Thank you so much for sharing this painful, sensitive piece, Ann. I can so identify with it. I’ve had people in my past (and not-so-distant past) say that I don’t know how strong I am because of what I’ve been through. They don’t see the pain I’m still in, the fear, the nightmares etc. Even on good days, I feel like damaged goods and get triggered easily.

    I do hope you are okay today, Ann. I will be thinking of you. I’m so grateful to you for sharing the insightful and understanding posts that you post on your blog. Take care. Xx 💗🌼💕

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    • I think we often assume that people who are ‘forced’ to deal with a lot somehow turn into superheroes. But, as you so eloquently point out, they do not see the nightmares, relentless pain, panic attacks etc … Not to mention having to deal with the constant triggering.
      Thanks for your kind words. I hope you are having a good week.

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  3. This post takes me to my mother’s journey through the trauma of losing her husband (my stepfather) through an unselfish action of taking his life. While she has healed considerably, the scars and images will remain.

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