Are We There Yet?

trauma shatters our most basic assumptions

One of the awful things about betrayal trauma is it feels like the symptoms just never go away.

They plague you in the night-time and they interrupt your sleep.

Your heart is pounding loudly and you find it hard to breathe.

The sweat is pouring off you and you’re shaking like a leaf.

Your mind and thoughts are screaming – God, I need to find relief.

And that’s just the night terrors.

Days are filled with landmines too.

Who knows what triggers wait us.

There’ll be something, that’s for sure.

Yes, there’s breathing exercises, and some talking therapy.

And there’s always meditation – if you’re able to do that.

At times these can be useful. But recovery is slow.

You’re living in a time warp.

It’s a long and torturous road.

2 thoughts on “Are We There Yet?

  1. Prayer is, also, a great release. Consider this excerpt from Psalm 143:

    “The enemy has pursued my soul;
    he has crushed my life to the ground.
    He has made me dwell in darkness
    like those long dead.
    My spirit is faint within me;
    my heart despairs.
    I remember the days of old;
    I ponder all your deeds;
    the works of your hands I recall.
    I stretch out my hands toward you,
    my soul to you like a parched land.”

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